Hmm...I only have two followers so for anyone new who starts following i guess i should start from the beginging.... I am a almost 22 year old female recovery from anorexia, bulimia, and self-harm. I have severe depression and anxiety and ADHD. Makes it super hard to concentrate when i'm always finding something to distract me.. ooh! cheeseballs!... lol
Well as my blog says... one day at a time. That's how it's been. Until now. I'm slipping.. I'm getting very depressed again. I'm learning what my triggers are and i'm trying to catch myself before I completely relapse again.. And thats exactly what i'm doing. I went to my fiancee and I told him i'm feeling depressed. I'm feeling the overwhelming urge to cut. It's soooo strong. Like this morning I failed a pop quiz in my american Gov't class. What did I want to do? CUT! BUT I DID NOT! But cutting is such a release. Such a punishment. It makes me feel alive. It makes me have phyical pain instead of this emotional pain bull crap.
I can't go down this road again. My fiancee can't go down this road agin either. He gets scared and can't deal with it. I don't know how i got so lucky to get him anyway. He is truely a miricle. I love him with all my heart. He's definitely my better half.
For now I keep on pushing on... One (BABY0 step at a time!
Monday, January 31, 2011
Saturday, January 1, 2011
New Year. New Me.
Happy New Year! :) It is offically 2011 the moment I have been waiting for since 2010 began. haha 2010 was an epic failure. So I plan to do 2011 right. After all if the world is going to end in 2012 then i've only got 2 years left to live.
The year started off with great friends and too much booze. Woke up today with the world's worst headache. And I still have it! This is nuts! I'm considering going to bed after writing this. Even though it is only 8 in the evening.
Let's see.. i'm in college, i'll graduate this summer with my Associate's degree :) Then transfer to university. I'm a major in social work. I want to work in mental health as a counselor/social worker. I'm so pumped. I get to volunteer in the hospital this semester for school too. And see what it's really like, on a day to day basis. Pretty exciting!!!
I'm a dancer. I've been dancer since I was 2. Right now i'm on my college dance team. An experience of a lifetime!
I'm engaged to be married! No date yet..
Well, now you know a bit about me! Follow me please! and I shall follow you!
--One Dat At A Time
The year started off with great friends and too much booze. Woke up today with the world's worst headache. And I still have it! This is nuts! I'm considering going to bed after writing this. Even though it is only 8 in the evening.
Let's see.. i'm in college, i'll graduate this summer with my Associate's degree :) Then transfer to university. I'm a major in social work. I want to work in mental health as a counselor/social worker. I'm so pumped. I get to volunteer in the hospital this semester for school too. And see what it's really like, on a day to day basis. Pretty exciting!!!
I'm a dancer. I've been dancer since I was 2. Right now i'm on my college dance team. An experience of a lifetime!
I'm engaged to be married! No date yet..
Well, now you know a bit about me! Follow me please! and I shall follow you!
--One Dat At A Time
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